While I was waiting for Misty during her ultrasound, there was a German shepherd in one of the exam rooms, with the door open.
Ten years ago, my dog (Munchkin) and I were attacked by a German Shepherd.
Ten years later, I am still terrified of the breed, especially the ones that look like the typical police dog.
At one point, the dog/owner came out of the exam room and walked by me to bring the dog outside to relieve itself.
I tried to remain calm, but my panic rose. I turned my body to the side in my chair and tried to make myself invisible.
After they came back in the office, my fears had escalated to the point where I had to leave the building. I was terrified the dog would charge at me, even though I had no reason to believe the dog was aggressive.
I've been thinking about this for days, and comparing myself to Oreo.
How many times have I seen Oreo try to make himself invisible, by hiding under a chair, or squeezing his body into a corner, or running away to escape his fears?
How can I help him with his fears, if I, a human with means of logic and reasoning, can't squelch my own fears?
The experts say to feed the dog food to desensitize and such.
Well, feeding me food around a German shepherd wouldn't work. What would be rewarding for me? A room full of puppies perhaps? Even so, I don't think any amount of positive experiences could get the image of the attack out of my brain. I will always see the breed as powerful and potentially deadly.
I can avoid German shepherds for the most part, and live my life fear free.
Unfortunately, Oreo's fears are more broad. So, we'll keep trying, but from now on, when I see him start to get stressed over something, I'm going to remember how I feel when a German Shepherd walks in the room.